I recently decided to get involved in a local charity for visually impaired people. How this came about is all a bit random but basically I noticed that they were doing a charity event in the city I work in which prompted me to look at their website and by chance I noticed they were looking for trustees.
I am not saying I would be much use as trustee but in theory I am a professionally qualified person and I have a visual impairment so on some level I thought I might qualify and potentially be useful. I hoped that it would give me an opportunity to get involved with a charity supporting people with visual impairment. Something that I have an obvious empathy with.
Anyway the reason for telling you this has very little to do with the charity and is really about the trustee selection process. When I volunteered to be a trustee I had assumed that as they were advertising for them they must be short of volunteers. Far from it! They had six volunteers for three trustee places and there had to be an election by the members.
Well that was shock number one but was nothing like as bad as shock number two. I would have to give a speech at the AGM as to why I wanted to be a trustee. When the CEO said this I just smiled and said fine but, inside, I was petrified. It was not the idea of public speaking which, although not my favourite thing at all, is something I occasionally have to do for work so I can psyche myself up for that. No it was how did I explain why I wanted to be a trustee without saying that I was visually impaired – without saying that I was blind.
I am sure this sounds really dumb to you. You use a stick so of course you’re visually impaired and people will see that. The reality is that I am blind so what’s the problem with the saying it. The thing is though that although I have told people on a one to one basis, or even as a small group in an office context, they have always been people I know. Even if only superficially. I have never stood up in front of a room full of strangers and said it out loud. There is a big difference – to me.
On the day I am sure you could have heard my heart beating from a hundred metres away. To be honest to call what I had to do “a speech” is over stating it considerably. It only had to last a couple of minutes and was basically a who are you, what do you do and why do you want to be a trustee.
I don’t remember what I said apart from saying “my name is and I am visually impaired. I was registered blind in 2008”. It just reminded me of the AA meetings you see on the television. My name is and I am an alcoholic. But, to be honest if in AA meetings they use that as part of the therapy then I can understand that because although the whole thought of doing it petrified me actually it felt good saying it. Really good.